This is How It Feels

This is How It Feels by Wesley Oakes 24 December 2010

This is how it feels. It's funny but this is the only way to describe it.
You have to go now, mommy doesn't love you anymore.
Mommy has a new little boy, you have to go find someone new.
The sky is empty there are no stars. The ocean is my due.
Underwater is the only place for me. With my wreath.
Under the water is where I belong, it's the only place I can breathe!
I don't want to feel happy anymore. I don't want to eat or drink anymore.
It's better this way, it's what you wanted. I want to give you that.
I always wanted to give you everything you wanted, with no catch.
This is such a beautiful view on christmas eve. I took a picture of you.
It's the one that I believed in. It's the one I want to take with me.
Please, Father, will you make me a new Chevanne. Amen.